Monday, November 21, 2011

Dreaming of Not Being a Teacher

Today I awoke from a dream which unfolded as follows...

I took a job at a traditional university where I taught four classes.  I recall looking at my schedule and seeing that I taught two classes on each day, Monday through Thursday.  I felt intimidated before my first class, but once I was standing in front of the students I felt comfortable improvising what I spoke about.  In my dream life, as in my real life, I'm a talker!

I wish I could recall all four of the classes I taught.  I know that one of the classes was on the topic of Synchronicity, which I thought was a fun topic.  I believe another class was on Psychology.  I'm not sure what the other two were...perhaps Art and Gym.  Perhaps I was dreaming, in part, about what curriculum I would personally enjoy.

In the dream I became discouraged that the students, like most college students, were just kind of there because they "had to be."  I also became uncomfortable with having to get up early, and also sticking to a "structured schedule" (something I haven't done in my real life's work since working for the man in 1997).

So I decided to quit my teaching job after only 2 days.  Afterwards I received a complicated bill from the university saying that I would have to pay thousands of dollars because I didn't finish what I started.  I asked my mom to help me decipher the bill, figuring that since she had worked as a grad student teacher at Michigan State she would understand the language used in the bill.

As I reflected upon this dream after awaking I thought it reflected recent thoughts I've had about how having a fixation upon sharing about esoteric concepts such as synchronicity is a somewhat isolating path.  Most people, I've observed, don't really have much interest in the things I find fascinating, and so my dream may have been reflecting the part of me that is disconnected from mainstream society.

I was reminded as I sat down to blog about the beginning of the book Illusions by Richard Bach.  I didn't get into the rest of the book, but the hand written introduction was about how many people were in a river, clinging to branches as the water pushed against them.  The people held on as hard as they could, and Bach realized the secret was to just let go, and flow with the river.  After sharing this secret with the others, he basically flew away to do his own thing.

So as I run out of things to say about synchronicity and psychology, what comes next?  Art?  Gym?  Stillness?  Disassociation from traditional curriculum?  I don't know but I'll find out at each bend in the river as I continue to float along.  All I know right now is that I've got a nice, sleepy cat on my lap...and not one "real" problem.

Peace,
Chris

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