I've noticed a pattern when reading about people who've become "awakened" or "enlightened." These powerful experiences are often preceded by an intense period of some degree of suicidal ideation. It's often as if the desire to die is a rite of passage one must move through before being able to release attachment to their socialized reality.
Suicide has been a topic I've been much more interested in since my father killed himself in 2002. Although he didn't leave a note or tell anyone beforehand about his motivations for ending his life, I'm fairly sure that in his case he was not on the verge of enlightenment (he was not very open to spirituality). My father was in the early stages of Parkinson's disease and his death, in my opinion, was a blend of euthanasia, over-identification with being a body, and unresolved emotional woundedness stemming from never feeling loved by his parents.
I believe that the act of actually killing yourself as part of an emerging spiritual identity is quite rare. However, the thoughts of no longer wanting to be here can be pervasive and intense as you begin to disidentify with the socialization in which you are immersed.
So why is the desire to no longer be in this world so common? I've identified two factors that I believe are relevant for many people who are in the process of awakening:
1. As we become attuned to spiritual truths, our perception shifts, and we see how much of what the world values is empty and meaningless. This can create a great deal of isolation and disconnectedness, leading to much less attachment to further existing in this realm. Additionally, we sense there is greater peace in the form of spirit...and a longing for that "lack of duality" can arise within us.
2. Although we may think that we want to end our life, what we actually want to end is the suffering caused by our thoughts. We most likely have only partially learned how to minimize the pain that our thinking creates, and so a compulsion to end our life can be viewed as one way of stopping the thoughts...or so we (unconsciously) desire. Personally, I believe suicide leads to reincarnation, and the same issues will come up again (most likely intensified), so suicide doesn't really end anything.
I share these perspectives in case anyone else has had related feelings...so you feel less alone regarding this "taboo" topic. It is scary to have such thoughts, let alone share them with others.
I have come to believe that although life in this world can be painful and seem somewhat pointless at times...we have all come here for a reason. I feel that those whose lives are spiritually focused have chosen before birth to come here and help bring greater peace to the world. As we transition from "What does the world have to offer me?" to "What can we offer?" there is greater harmony in our experience of life. To slightly modify J.F.K.'s famous words, "Ask not what the world can do for you, but what you can do for the world."
The joy of bringing more light to the world does not mean that we are required to live an ascetic life. Continue to eat food you like, watch entertainment you enjoy, and experience other Earthly delights. Concurrently, be open to the idea that there is (emerging within you) no greater reward than helping to bring peace to the world by developing a peaceful mind, developing integrity and compassion in your relationships, and helping others heal.
As your spiritual presence deepens, subtle and high vibrational pursuits will feel increasingly more delightful than amusement parks, sightseeing and other external experiences. Escapist activities only temporarily allow you to ignore the gnawing discomfort of a true identity that has not yet been discovered, and a mind that is not yet calm. Trust that there is something more powerful awaiting.
Peace,
Chris
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Suicide has been a topic I've been much more interested in since my father killed himself in 2002. Although he didn't leave a note or tell anyone beforehand about his motivations for ending his life, I'm fairly sure that in his case he was not on the verge of enlightenment (he was not very open to spirituality). My father was in the early stages of Parkinson's disease and his death, in my opinion, was a blend of euthanasia, over-identification with being a body, and unresolved emotional woundedness stemming from never feeling loved by his parents.
I believe that the act of actually killing yourself as part of an emerging spiritual identity is quite rare. However, the thoughts of no longer wanting to be here can be pervasive and intense as you begin to disidentify with the socialization in which you are immersed.
So why is the desire to no longer be in this world so common? I've identified two factors that I believe are relevant for many people who are in the process of awakening:
1. As we become attuned to spiritual truths, our perception shifts, and we see how much of what the world values is empty and meaningless. This can create a great deal of isolation and disconnectedness, leading to much less attachment to further existing in this realm. Additionally, we sense there is greater peace in the form of spirit...and a longing for that "lack of duality" can arise within us.
2. Although we may think that we want to end our life, what we actually want to end is the suffering caused by our thoughts. We most likely have only partially learned how to minimize the pain that our thinking creates, and so a compulsion to end our life can be viewed as one way of stopping the thoughts...or so we (unconsciously) desire. Personally, I believe suicide leads to reincarnation, and the same issues will come up again (most likely intensified), so suicide doesn't really end anything.
I share these perspectives in case anyone else has had related feelings...so you feel less alone regarding this "taboo" topic. It is scary to have such thoughts, let alone share them with others.
I have come to believe that although life in this world can be painful and seem somewhat pointless at times...we have all come here for a reason. I feel that those whose lives are spiritually focused have chosen before birth to come here and help bring greater peace to the world. As we transition from "What does the world have to offer me?" to "What can we offer?" there is greater harmony in our experience of life. To slightly modify J.F.K.'s famous words, "Ask not what the world can do for you, but what you can do for the world."
The joy of bringing more light to the world does not mean that we are required to live an ascetic life. Continue to eat food you like, watch entertainment you enjoy, and experience other Earthly delights. Concurrently, be open to the idea that there is (emerging within you) no greater reward than helping to bring peace to the world by developing a peaceful mind, developing integrity and compassion in your relationships, and helping others heal.
As your spiritual presence deepens, subtle and high vibrational pursuits will feel increasingly more delightful than amusement parks, sightseeing and other external experiences. Escapist activities only temporarily allow you to ignore the gnawing discomfort of a true identity that has not yet been discovered, and a mind that is not yet calm. Trust that there is something more powerful awaiting.
Peace,
Chris
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