So my ego thought that it knew what was best today. It (I in my ego state) thought it would be "better" if a mobile mechanic came to my home and fixed my car's air conditioning system. It didn't work out yesterday (the guy who was supposed to come fix it never showed up, and never called) but I was sure it was just a matter of finding the right person.
And I did...after many placing many calls out to the Mobile Mechanics of Craigslist. I found a guy who said he could come over around 3:15pm. His wife, who handled his calls, said he was sometimes late...so I figured he might come over by 4pm. Around 4:30pm his wife called and said he was doing an emergency repair, and that he'd be a bit delayed...perhaps 6pm. Around 6:30pm I found he was still delayed...and so on...until finally after 10pm he called me and said he wouldn't be able to make it.
During this nearly 7 hour delay, I felt an increasing tension in my body. I tried myself it didn't matter...that I still had a couple months until the weather would be warm enough to require air conditioning in my car. But alas, nothing worked. The tension continued to build, and I considered simply cancelling the appointment, and calling another mechanic who said he could do it tomorrow. Earlier in the day a guy who I had talked to said he was ready to come over, but I told him I had another mechanic scheduled by then (Sir DelaysAlot).
Anyhow, I was disappointed when I found out it wasn't going to happen...but also relieved. I soon understood that the tension in my body was my intuition telling me that this was not the way to fix my car's air conditioning system. I knew (but denied) that taking it to a garage would be better because they had the proper equiptment to do a thorough job, vacuum out the system, for example...something a mobile mechanic wouldn't do.
My ego wanted it to just be done with. But the tense part of me that felt uncomfortable with doing it the "quick and easy" way knew that I didn't want to have it done in some mediocre manner that would just lead to the freon being depleted within another half year. I knew, on a deeper level, that I wanted it done professionally and correctly.
So, coordinating it being done right will take more effort, but it will be worth it! I sense, on some level, that my karma is good, and so the universe wouldn't allow it to happen in a way that would leave me feeling less secure about the repair. At the time, however, I didn't feel blessed or "helped" by the universe...I felt frustrated, punished and confused about why it wasn't happening the way I wanted to unfold.
But this is what I'm learning. I'm understanding every day how things really work. And if I pay attention to subtle energy, I can often notice that when something is not "in flow" it is simply not meant to be.
In the past I could "force it anyhow" but fortunately, as I raise my vibration through living in truth and integrity, the universe will not allow me to make the same mistakes I used to make. Thank you for frustrating me, universe! I'll try to keep in mind that when I feel frustrated it's simply because there's something I don't yet understand.
A day later (update)...
So I awoke the next morning feeling as though I should call some mechanics and ask them about whether or not air conditioners needed to be vacuumed in a shop. It turns out this is only necessary if there is a differnt type of antifreeze being used. I found a mobile mechanic who had a nice personality and seems trustworthy. The story isn't over yet but it goes to show that one "interpretation" can seem to make sense one moment, and then another comes along.
I realized today I had a great deal of resistance to the other mechanic coming out yesterday because his wife, who I spoke to on the phone, was very ill...and I figured he may have her illness (cold or flu) too. So one of the things that is being "tested" for me is my belief about illness. Do I believe we manifest illness when we are out of alignment with our truth or need some lessons...or is it simply a random occurrence related to viruses. I had fear that it would be risky to expose myself to possible illness, so that may have been part of what disallowed the other guy from coming over yesterday. Also, I didn't really care for his personality. And one last synchronicity was that the guy who ended up coming over today has the same name as a friend of mine who wrote me back who I hadn't heard from in over 30 years (a friend from elementary school). It's always interesting to look for patterns and symbolism in names.
Peace,
Chris
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And I did...after many placing many calls out to the Mobile Mechanics of Craigslist. I found a guy who said he could come over around 3:15pm. His wife, who handled his calls, said he was sometimes late...so I figured he might come over by 4pm. Around 4:30pm his wife called and said he was doing an emergency repair, and that he'd be a bit delayed...perhaps 6pm. Around 6:30pm I found he was still delayed...and so on...until finally after 10pm he called me and said he wouldn't be able to make it.
During this nearly 7 hour delay, I felt an increasing tension in my body. I tried myself it didn't matter...that I still had a couple months until the weather would be warm enough to require air conditioning in my car. But alas, nothing worked. The tension continued to build, and I considered simply cancelling the appointment, and calling another mechanic who said he could do it tomorrow. Earlier in the day a guy who I had talked to said he was ready to come over, but I told him I had another mechanic scheduled by then (Sir DelaysAlot).
Anyhow, I was disappointed when I found out it wasn't going to happen...but also relieved. I soon understood that the tension in my body was my intuition telling me that this was not the way to fix my car's air conditioning system. I knew (but denied) that taking it to a garage would be better because they had the proper equiptment to do a thorough job, vacuum out the system, for example...something a mobile mechanic wouldn't do.
My ego wanted it to just be done with. But the tense part of me that felt uncomfortable with doing it the "quick and easy" way knew that I didn't want to have it done in some mediocre manner that would just lead to the freon being depleted within another half year. I knew, on a deeper level, that I wanted it done professionally and correctly.
So, coordinating it being done right will take more effort, but it will be worth it! I sense, on some level, that my karma is good, and so the universe wouldn't allow it to happen in a way that would leave me feeling less secure about the repair. At the time, however, I didn't feel blessed or "helped" by the universe...I felt frustrated, punished and confused about why it wasn't happening the way I wanted to unfold.
But this is what I'm learning. I'm understanding every day how things really work. And if I pay attention to subtle energy, I can often notice that when something is not "in flow" it is simply not meant to be.
In the past I could "force it anyhow" but fortunately, as I raise my vibration through living in truth and integrity, the universe will not allow me to make the same mistakes I used to make. Thank you for frustrating me, universe! I'll try to keep in mind that when I feel frustrated it's simply because there's something I don't yet understand.
A day later (update)...
So I awoke the next morning feeling as though I should call some mechanics and ask them about whether or not air conditioners needed to be vacuumed in a shop. It turns out this is only necessary if there is a differnt type of antifreeze being used. I found a mobile mechanic who had a nice personality and seems trustworthy. The story isn't over yet but it goes to show that one "interpretation" can seem to make sense one moment, and then another comes along.
I realized today I had a great deal of resistance to the other mechanic coming out yesterday because his wife, who I spoke to on the phone, was very ill...and I figured he may have her illness (cold or flu) too. So one of the things that is being "tested" for me is my belief about illness. Do I believe we manifest illness when we are out of alignment with our truth or need some lessons...or is it simply a random occurrence related to viruses. I had fear that it would be risky to expose myself to possible illness, so that may have been part of what disallowed the other guy from coming over yesterday. Also, I didn't really care for his personality. And one last synchronicity was that the guy who ended up coming over today has the same name as a friend of mine who wrote me back who I hadn't heard from in over 30 years (a friend from elementary school). It's always interesting to look for patterns and symbolism in names.
Peace,
Chris
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